I'm BACK. (Sigh of peace)

My Dear Ones,

I am happy to be back.

Lets start with my disclaimer - I will not dwell on why I stopped and what happened to my spirit and my self expression. We will just let that go and move on. I will only say that the time I was away I worked a couple of nice temporary assignments and that I celebrated my confirmation in the Catholic church. The first thing adds to my job skills and gets me ready for whatever employment I am going to find. The second thing I had been meaning to get to for a long time. I can't really call it a completion though, since faith should continue for life. When Paul and I redid our marriage in the Catholic church last year, Father Mike told me he wanted me to get confirmed as soon as possible. So I did. It was a very interesting study which is continuing. It also opened my eyes to a lot of ways the Church has changed. By the way, I will never preach to anyone or tell what anyone should do, or what path if - any they should take. This is MY path and it makes me happy. Live your own life, follow your own path. Be happy with your choice. If you ask me a question about what I believe and what I feel, I will probably tell you. Other then that, any statements I make here about ME and MY journey, so if anyone takes offence - it is on you. You make your choice to love, honor, worship or support what ever your heart desires and I will respect and support your right to do so. I just ask for that same respect. Okay? Is that heavy handed?  YES. This does make me happy.

Now that I am home during the day again. I have a lot of things to do. We are going out of town next weekend for my husband's 4th degree ceremony with the Knights of Columbus. His twin brother, Manuel will stay over here and doggy/house sit with Baron. My house is a big mess. It sort of looks like a college dorm....well, a college dorm that exploded. Manuel is the only outside person allowed in here by choice. He does not judge or complain. This is a very welcome and appreciated attitude.There are storage boxed and papers and shopping bags and books and stuffed animals and toys (we don't have kids - we are the kids) and shoes and tools and ... stuff everywhere. My job this week is to do something to make it more livable and to find the couch. Manuel made the choice to sleep on the couch instead of an air bed. Wherever he chooses, Baron will sleep on his feet. The kitchen and front bathroom will be made more usable. They are not health risks, but just ... messy. Somethings will take actual construction repairs, soft floor boards in the kitchen and bathroom, and the toilet in the front bathroom works but will need to be replaced soon. And we will someday, when we can. In the meantime it is still safe and livable. Most homes have minor repairs to be made. You live with what you've got. My home - I share with my husband and my dog. This makes me happy.

So today, Did I work in the house? Nope. I did some gardening. I transplanted some veggies to better containers. Someday I will have a house with real ground. For now I buy soil in bags. Are you dumber then a bag of dirt if you buy your dirt in bags? But, I love the feel and smell of the soil. I don't mind that it gets under my fingernails. There is still a lot of work to do. I have 2 half barrels into which I want to transplant my orange trees. I need to drill a drain hole in the bottom of each. I'm using a thing that drills a 1 1/2 inch hole. But, I have realized drilling hard oak is not easy. One of the orange trees is full of blossoms, is it too late to transplant? The trees are each 'dwarf' variety and are about 3 ft tall, in 10 inch containers that are way too small. I can't help thinking it is, for them, like wearing shoes that are too tight. I have had the trees for about 2 years and they have each given me one orange. They take turns. It is a delightful gift to pick my orange in the fall and to enjoy the sweet fruit that grew just for me. This make me happy

I have one garden place that doesn't need work, just love, water and the sun. It is a flower box that is growing ivy that was the "favor" at the party for our wedding renewal. Sitting amongst the ivy is Snow White (with dopey) She is my girl. When I was little she was the only dark haired princess. The opposite end of the flower box holds a 'sand' castle. There are stones from one end to the others that say FAITH, HOPE, LOVE, and JOY. This makes me happy

Well, I am so happy to back to putting my mind and heart into words to share. Please forgive me for my little rant in the beginning. I welcome constructive conversation. But try to keep in mind what constructive means. It doesn't mean personal judgement or to pick apart. Let's pretend this is just you and I having a visit. That would make me happy. How about you?

Peace, Joy, Love, Happiness and a sunny garden to you all.