Starting a new job is both good and bad for my self confidence. I have been so dormant for so long that my brain has gotten lazy. Even though I am picking up the details of the new job very well, I keep catching myself dropping into doubt. There have been things I was shown once or twice that I have expected myself to know completely. Then I catch myself and realize that I can't expect to know it all so quickly. I am reminding myself to be happy with the progress I am making.
I used to say I had low self esteem because there was very little about myself to hold in esteem. At that time in my life that may have been true. I was not making the right choices in my life. I was not taking responsibility for my own actions. There really wasn't much about me to hold up in esteem. But when I was in this state of mind, what I needed to do was reach deep inside and find that something, Something to believe in, some God given spark to hold on to. With that one thing a ladder was built one rung at a time. I still stand on one rung for far too long sometimes, and occasionally I stumble and slip a rung or two. But hold on tight for when it is time to move again. This is my time to move up and forward now..
So, as I learn my new job skills and make new friends I learn more about myself and the fact that I have things about myself worthy of esteem. When I relax I know that it is okay to be myself. When I have self doubt and don't feel I'm good enough, smart enough or that I'm not learning fast enough I can choose a different perspective. I look at the other side and count my blessings. I am happy with the way things are going and how things are changing for the better.
Peace, Joy, Love, Happiness and belief in your beautiful self worth, my esteemed dear ones.
I used to say I had low self esteem because there was very little about myself to hold in esteem. At that time in my life that may have been true. I was not making the right choices in my life. I was not taking responsibility for my own actions. There really wasn't much about me to hold up in esteem. But when I was in this state of mind, what I needed to do was reach deep inside and find that something, Something to believe in, some God given spark to hold on to. With that one thing a ladder was built one rung at a time. I still stand on one rung for far too long sometimes, and occasionally I stumble and slip a rung or two. But hold on tight for when it is time to move again. This is my time to move up and forward now..
So, as I learn my new job skills and make new friends I learn more about myself and the fact that I have things about myself worthy of esteem. When I relax I know that it is okay to be myself. When I have self doubt and don't feel I'm good enough, smart enough or that I'm not learning fast enough I can choose a different perspective. I look at the other side and count my blessings. I am happy with the way things are going and how things are changing for the better.
Peace, Joy, Love, Happiness and belief in your beautiful self worth, my esteemed dear ones.
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